✿一年 又 一年✿

on 18th Sept 2010

今天是什么日子啊？
从前的我还一直盼望 期待 着这天
不过
。。。。。。。。现在的我。。。。。。。。











如果不是 。 他
我还真的差点忘了今天呢
。
。
回忆。。。就让它成为永恒的回忆

纪年。当年

✿i ❤ sky✿

i ❤ sky

✿everything already become past-tense✿

~i am so sad!!!~
~if tears can heal my pain,i willing to cry for whole of my life~

but nothg i can do nw
i just can follow the fate
OURs fate

hmm...off the light
and just SLEEP la!!~hope that everythg will be fine~

✿ah dear happy birthday✿

5 more mins later is my dear dear birthday le
faster faster send msg to him 1st

but let the other girl be d 1st 1 le...
T.T sad lo!!

haiz.....
but i ad zhun zhun send le ma

too bad!!

BUT
anyway
happy birthday to U

sing a song 1st:
happy bday to U
happy bday to U
happy bday to my dear dear
happy bday to U

love u alwayz..
muackz^^


bday cakes for u
4 flavors
try all yaar!!
delicious..^^

present cakenice neh!!





next week will come find u
and celebrate belated bday with u yaar~

✿thanks you,my dear✿

to dear:
thanks for coming and celebrate bday with me
although it is simple
but i am so happy
it is really memorable~
i will not forget it and keep it forever in my heart
love u so so much

✿the truth✿

i ad know the truth
and i feel that i am so obstinacyoriginally,ah dear is plan to give me a surprise
and lie to me that he cannot come to find me and celebrate my bday

but just now he called me
and tell me the truth

i am so touch..
i spoil his plan@.@
i spoil everythghe actually ad plan that
on the day of my bday
he will call me and gv me surprise by replying 'i at downstairs'
after i ask 'whr are u?'

see..he plan everythg
but i destroy itthis few days i cant slp
i am so angry to him
keep ask,why he dont want to come
really so buzy ma?!

but now
i only know the truth

i am a fool !!he said,he so scare that
i will broke up with him

cause every night when he called
i keep argue and give trouble to him

just now
he ad promise me that he confirm will come on 15th le
and celebrate bday with me
so happy arr^^

thx dear..
dont angry me that i am a childish girl ooh~

✿he make me sick✿

last few days
dear told me that he will come to Kampar to celebrate bday wif me
he said,is my bday,how can him let me alone and pass the bday?!
must accompany me and celebrate

once i heard this
my heart melt into the air
sweet~just like the chocolate melting in my mouth~

but...last night
he called
and told me, he maybe cant come ad
he give me some reasons..

i dont know how to accept and response to it
i angry to myself!!
why am i so small gas...!!
i talked loudly to him
take the prompt and cold action
~end the call~

in my head
3 words keep flow here and there
~i hate u~

somehow
2day when i woke up
i ad 4got the thgs that i angry of

but,i still hope that he will come
pls~
1 yr only got 1 time
pls~dear~

✿little message board for my love✿

❤little message board for my love❤
✿thx dear dear for treat me for the whole trip and giving me so much happiness✿

L❤vE u alwayz..
gonna miss u now
muackzZzZz

✿2 yrs anniversary✿

guess..2day is what day?
yes,is me and my dear 2 yrs anniversary
so sad that he is not here to celebrate wif me
all bcoz of examination!!
HATE it!!

but he said we replace it when go KL^^
sweet sweet

2day morning once i woke up
i quickly make a call to him
but what i get is
number that u have dial is unavailable
plz leave a msg after a 'beep'
doo.........

oh no!!
so disappointed
why he dint charge his HP again..?!
2day is a special day for us..
crying in my heart
asking myself..
izzt he ad 4get 2day?
izzt...and izzt...
thk a lot@.@

at 4.00pm i only receive his call
i asked,do u know 2day is what day?
*actually i know he ad 4get 2day date*
bcoz he is too busy in this whole day(business stuff)
but i nearly to drop my tears when he answered,
'2day is 18th sept?ya,our 2 yrs anniversary..after work we chat 2 hours yaar~'
so touching although he doesn't rmb and make a call to me priority
but..dont know..
i am still feel touching on it
~persuading myself that~
*it is forgivable*
but no 2nd time...

✿Am i lamentableners...?!✿

i am not happy rite now..
heart feel so pain
~thinking~
why am i so foolish
loving some1 who currently not care bout me
am i did anythg wrong?
why he want treat me in this way?
i have tried
try hard to do the 1 which he wish
the 1 he dream of

but at the end
what have i get..?
i get...
with a hopeful heart to wait for his reply
at the end
he no reply
just called and said:i'm busy,call u ltr
okie~i wait u..
the 'later' he said is not mean later
is 2night or mayb 2mr
keep wait..wait and wait
wait till he free and call back to me
time taking too long
call to him
what am i get..?
i get...
with a cracked heart to hear this word from his mouth
i am still busy
or sometime he will reply
oh..sry 4 no call back..u eat?(this question he ask for millions time)
b4 end call he will say:slp early yaar~(this word i ad heard for a hundred millions time)
same word he will repeating ask/say to me
izzt mean tat he is not concentrate wen talking wif me?
i felt tat,he is not love me anymore
i really thk tat
crying at night under my bedquilt
thinking of why he treat me like tat
why why why
same question asking myself again and again
i am tired
tell myself give up and find another guy to love
but everytime oso not success
once i get his call
my heart melt wen heard his voice again


sad..?happy..?sick...?tired..?bored..?
who cares?
no 1 will cares bout me
no 1..

started to miss my family
wen get loss in love or studies
home is the best place to fell back on

✿helping him✿

my little dear is going to expand his business
by open another branch shared with his fren
they will selling designed jewelry
hope they will success
and get more n more customers..^^

they will open at Giant,Kulim
rent a stall and selling thr

i help him to do proposal which will pass up to Giant manager
1st time doing proposal
the structure of proposal just same like assignment

lucky i am quite well trained
so it is not a problem for me><(beh paiseh ei gin na)
super add,i can find some sample of proposal though Google
so,it is much more easier for me xixi~
quite enjoy to do it
but will also take it serious
cause it is a real business

i cant explain why i am happy to helping him doing all this thing
every time if he asking me do
i will do and will enjoy to do it
izzt.. i am love him?
~shy~

last time i had been helped him to do assignment and homework
and every time i do
will do with a smiling face

feel like
helping him is my job
am i c2p?!
yes,maybe sometime is
but
who call
i am his dear tooo..
~shy~

❤falling to a sweetness love❤

8.20pm

✿heart pain✿

once again heard the voice of sadness from the deepmost of my heart
it is bleeding with tears
why am i so sad..?
why am i crying...?

yes..
i admit it
i MISS him again

who is the guy who make me cry?
who is the guy who make my heart pain?
is HE

my little DEAR
my little sweetheart
so miss him
feel lonely when i stop missing him
but once i miss him
my tears drop from my eyes

how many days we dint meet
how many moment when i need him but he does not here
how many nights i was crying under my pillow

it is infinity
uncountable
tooo many days
tooo many nights

every air that i breath remind me he is far away from me
every voice that i heard remind me i am missing him
every every and every thing remind me
he is not with me now
and i do miss him

i always imagine that he is here right now with me
but every time every time i started to imagine
my tears drop again and again

trying hard to do many things to let me tired
and stop to miss him

BUT it does not work at all
the result is just in another way round
it just make it more serious

heart pain and pain
not because of he hurting me

is just because a simple thing
he make me MISS him